Eviction Notice

Well it finally arrived!!! And it felt like a relief, something I had been waiting for for a very long time had finally happened. I felt so calm and matter of fact - weird in one way and yet feeling perfectly normal in another. I now knew exactly how much time I had to turn things around. This was the, all coming together, transition period into my new life.
The date was 14th Jan 2009 and I was being given until 17th Feb 2009.
Saturday 17th Jan I felt was the beginning of the countdown and so going to the Biodanza workshop that day was perfect - strange coincidence that it was to have been the Sunday that I was going and somehwere else on Sat but the topic of that event (Think and Grow Rich - on steroids) has just fuelled the title and content for another book!!! The title 'Move and Grow Rich' then became 'Move and Grow Richer' because I realised the former implied starting from a poor stance rather than acknowledging how rich we already are - even in this present climate of the credit crunch illusion. This would be tapping into one of the basic laws that is constantly being expounded as key to getting rich - that of gratitude. With this title very much in my mind the dancing enabled me to see this period of time as being the time where it all changed for me and I am completely safe and supported.
Meeting people who enriched my life just by dancing with them. Enriched it further with conversations. Such joy of life flowing through the workshop, the music and into expression through the body.
Sunday another magical day - apart from being my birthday- now had a Master Mind meeting for me to attend. All arranged on fri, out of the blue. this time I realised I was dancing a different dance, a business dance, and so balanced for being able to be present to it, feel the rhthym and flow and just move. Naturally following the leads and picking up the steps easily and effortlessy. Interestingly there were considerably more men than women. But the day unfolded its magaic and metaphors and learnings came easily to me to assist me through the day.
I left with ideas flowing, motivation ablaze feeling I had the connecting pieces now and just had to implement them.
Today, after getting up several times in the night to write down ideas, I felt flat, had headache, lost the connection with the passion I had before. Hearing myself have a go at me again, trying to push myself to get on with things but feeling nauseous and ???
Julie's e-mail bringing joy and tears - all the seeds sown what has already cme to fruition and what is about to etc touched me deeply and resonated with something long ago sown and forgotten. Time to remember.
Manage to get a few things done. Then tonight get text about letter from solicitors that got me in touch with the anger and ludicrousness of the whole thing - the asked me for an address they could contact me at after I had moved!!!! Fucking hell - yes I am swearing (oops!!) and I should think lots other people do. If I had money I would pay the mortgage so how the hell am I suppose to be able to pay for somewhere else to live, to move my stuff out etc???? The heavy energy of the letter attempting to pull me down into submission. Envelope me into fealing scared and fearful but all it did was prompt me into action and finally text Sandra to say I would ring her at 9.00pm. We had a wonderful chat just like we do when I am at home. Freeing and acknowledging. Opening up the space for each to fly their own journey at their own pace knowing it didn't have to mean one being left behind or forgotten. Acknowledging that all is in divine order and time for her to find her own place - realising my home was my home and had been hers as well only as a stop gap to her finding her own. And maybe after nearly six and a half years it was time to allow herself to dream her own dreams.
An amazing quote arose from our conversation out of realisations of how simply she has solved many, apparently difficult, problems.

"Any difficult problem can solved with simple solutions" Sandra Richardson (19th Jan 2009)

So now I allow the simple solution to be seen, heard or sensed with any of the senses and be acted upon.

What am I playing at?

Here once again facing the threat of a repossession order. But somehow I am much calmer and more focused on doing what I am guided to do. Some my say I have my head in the sand - maybe that is how it looks from their view point because they have no knowledge or experience of the work I do. They have no knowledge of the fact that we create our own reality and so somehow I have created this situation.

What am I playing at? Well doing a jigsaw puzzle, amongst other things.

How does that help?

When I started the puzzle I was unable to see the detail very clearly and I was very easily distracted. I kept making mistakes, putting pieces in wrong places and feeling very tired. I gave up very quickly.

After I did 5 Brain Gym activities I was much more focused. I was able to see the detail more clearly and I just found myself picking up pieces and just putting them in the right place. There was an energetic natural flow, no decisions or thought required.

It doesn't make sense how I got here, so following steps that makes sense will not get me out.....